4 Years & 100 Pounds Later ❤

10:09 AM

Heeeey friends!

This post is one that I'm extrememly grateful, surprised, and ecstatic about. From the title, you can probably guess why.


4 years ago, I started a weight loss journal where I wrote about what my ideal weight was...and that weight was nearly 100 pounds less than what I weighed at the time. It seemed impossible. Especially since back then I wanted to look like Beyonce or Kim Kardashian (see post here).

If you've been following my journey for a while, you may recall that I stopped weighing myself in 2012 (more on that here and here). To put it briefly, by that winter, I was no longer obsessed with how much I weighed. I became more concerned about how I felt. That has guided my weight loss ever since.

A couple weeks ago, I was at a friend's house. And there it was. Looming in front of me like a rustic, vintage dream. An old school, fully functioning, beautiful wooden scale. I hadn't stepped on one since my doctor's appointment last year. I was curious about my weight, but skeptical about the results. I put my fears aside, closed my eyes, and stepped on the scale. When I looked down, my jaw dropped. I couldn't believe what I was seeing. I stepped off, waited for it to clear again and then stepped back on. Same thing. Same number. Could it be? No way! Then I called my boyfriend into the room to check if he was seeing the same thing I saw. He confirmed it.

Yallll...I didn't even know how to react! 4 years after this journey began, at a time when I wasn't even thinking about my weight, in a moment when I hadn't been on a scale in ages...in that place, in that time...I had finally reached my goal weight. 100 POUNDS DOWN. I almost cried! My boyfriend gave me the biggest hug as I was shaking and laughing all at the same time. It felt surreal. How did this happen? When? What??! Lol, I was over the moon!

My guy later asked, "So now that you've reached your goal weight, how do you feel? And what's next?"

I must say, that I feel...lighter. I'm aware that I take up less space than I used to. I recognize and sense the difference in energy and movement in a room now. Yet, truthfully, I'm not used to my new body. I often think I'm still the same size as before. It's strange...to feel at once different and the same.

To give a more tangible example, the other day I was in Target looking for leggings and a worker asked, "What do you need, a small or medium?" And the question kinda floored me. I didn't immediately answer. I haven't been a small or medium since senior year of high school, so I just stammered, "Uhhh...I guess I should just try on different sizes?" Lolllll.

And what's next? I'm not sure. All I know is that I want to keep feeling healthy. Nothing has changed. I still eat well and keep up my routine of walking, yoga, and pilates. I've started belly dancing and bollywood dance classes as well, which has been fun. The biggest lesson I've learned so far is the difference between a weight loss journey and a health journey. In the beginning, I was results driven. I was all about the pounds dropping off. Over time, I just wanted to be a healthier version of myself: mind, body, and spirit. My journey was no longer just about my physical being, but all of me. I hope to never lose sight of that again.

On a lighter note, to celebrate this momentous occasion, I began researching a few things that weigh 100 pounds. It's amazing to think this is what I was carrying around in my body prior to the weight loss. Here are 5 of my favorite examples. Enjoy!

1) A small horse.

2) A newborn calf.

3) A toilet.

4) A dresser.

5) Willow Smith.

And as always, here's a little transformation photo!

Thank you all for being on this journey with me! ❤

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  1. Pam, you're such an inspiration. Thank you so much for sharing!

    1. Thank you my beautiful friend!!! That means so much to me :)


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